Tuesday, May 24, 2011

In other news, my legs feel tight still. Once I'm done with this, I've got to make-up the days I'm missing.
So they picked 16 potential jurors already. I'm holding onto the thought of going to work tomorrow to get me through this.

Friday, May 20, 2011

The Coffee Party is coming...

What is the Coffee Party, you ask? Simple. It is the antithesis of the Tea Party. It is the antithesis of the stench of apathy, the comfort with disrespect, and general lack of giving a shit that destroys us as a people and a country from within. Any post of specific happenings within our culture, especially ones that affect PoC (Black people more specifically) will be discussed under the heading of "The Coffee Party". Anytime you see a posting for The Coffee Party, you'll see the simple logo I designed for it that's on the bottom of this entry.

Worry not, though! I will still post up random things, as only I can. :)

P.S. I see now that when using Illustrator to save my stuff as jpgs, I'll have to up the setting from "high" to "maximum". Lesson learned!

Random Ish!! Friday Edition 5.20.2011

Couple things happened today:

-Wrestling legend "Macho Man" Randy Savage passed away today. People were tweeting about it today, but it was confirmed by TMZ that he suffered a heart attack while driving in his car, causing him to crash. We lost another great one, he will be missed. Oooooh YEAH! DIG IT?!!

-I fucking hate Canadian Customs for deciding to add a fucking COD charge to a package I sent to my loves up in Canada. Shoutouts to them, yo, EAT COCKS AND DIE!!!

-The racist so-called "Evolutionary Psychologist" Satoshi Kanazawa, who wrote the racist and sexist article for Psychology Today about why Black Women are less attractive, may actually lose his job teaching at London School of Economics, thanks to the students rallying for his dismissal. You can read more at these sites:



That's about it for now. I thought I'd go to a poetry reading tonight, but schoolwork and my funds spreading to bills and my plane ticket to Las Vegas in July have put me in a mood to go home, and...be a good student. LOL.

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Random News!! 5.19.2011

I haven't been on this blog, or my self-improvement/catharsis blog, The Recession, for quite some time now. I've been busy with life: work, school, my relationship, working out, etc. So here's some news!

* I think that it's time that I retire my other blog, The Recession. Though I do continue to undergo changes and challenges on my journey of self-growth, but I no longer look at this journey with the negative outlook I've had for so long. So, I believe that The Recession has served its purpose, at least for now. Maybe I'll find a way to revamp it somehow; I wonder if I could change the name, but....even then, I think I'll leave it as is. It will serve as a reminder to me of how much I've learned and how far I've come from those darker days.

*I'm going to change the look and feel of this blog, since I'll do my best to post here a bit more. My original objective was to post up things randomly that came to mind, but I think I will use this blog for a MYRIAD amount of things, making it TRULY random. So it's possible that at one moment, I could be talking about something within pop culture, like the attacks against Black women in the media, and then at the next moment, talk about how much I love getting fucked with a strap-on and a dildo. You just never know.

*...and I do LOVE it, very much so. I MISS MY BESS AND OUR BIG BOY BLUE!

*I'm taking down Ed Lover as my MWOR mascot. Why? Because according to his latest edition of his videos series, Cmon SON #23, he co-signed Joe Budden domestically attacking his ex-girlfriend, Esther Baxter. And when Bossip interviewed Baxter and put up proof of the domestic abuse via photos and copies of a police report, I sent a tweet to Ed asking him if he'd seen that article, but he never got back to me. So...yeah. I hate being left to assume shit, but based on him having Joe on Cmon SON mocking Baxter and calling her a bitch, he's on Joe's team. I can't co-sign that. I've been contemplating for a week or so if I should un-follow him on Twitter, YouTube, and unlike his page on Facebook. We'll see.

That's all the random news for now. Stayed tuned for MORE!

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Random Beauty Stuff

So, a while back ago, I decided to try out Iman's line of cosmetics and facial cleansers. The TIME CONTROL Gentle Foam Cleanser was good, but if I didn't use the Toner, my skin would stay dried out. The problems I've been having with my face is that if too much oils and such are on it, along with sweat from my workouts and hair product, I would start to break out.

About two weeks ago, I started using Aveeno Daily Moisturizing Lotion in the place of the IMAN Toner, and I've gotta say, I really LOVE it! Even with use of the toner, my skin would feel a bit dry still, and with use of makeup, I was starting to get dry spots on the sides of my mouth. Aveeno not only relieved my dry skin, it keep my skin moisturized for a full 24 hrs, like it says on the package!!

Since I had success with the lotion, I purchased Aveeno Ultra-Calming Foaming Cleanser, and it's SO much better on my skin! It cleanses my face without stripping as much moisture, to the point where I can use a very small amount of the Daily Moisturizing Lotion and my face won't get dry for the rest of the day.

I've also started using products from St. Ives, in particular, the Fresh Skin Make-up Remover and Facial Cleanser. It's creamy yet very gentle on my skin while removing make-up and dirt from my skin.

I'm also going to invest more in MAC Cosmetics. I have a foundation stick that is much closer to my actual skin tone, and today, I was made aware of a great concealer and softening lotion that I bought today. The Sephora powder I have gives me a darker, sorta toastier finish. I think I can minimalize it if I don't use too much of it since the foundation stick can be used all over my face.

I'm so happy. It seems like I have a nice face and makeup regimen to stick to, and since I'm going natural, I won't have greasy strands with product touching my face, clogging my pores, and giving me pimples. I feel good that I've gotten a pretty good handle over my face. Now, for the rest of my body....

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Why am I becoming emotionally unavailable again? God I'm such a fucking stick in the mud. I really think I need some serious therapy.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

Family Matters

enable (verb): to provide (someone) with adequate power, means, opportunity, or authority (to do something)

I want to talk about this, and get my feelings on this subject out in the open. My family has dealt with members suffering from substance addiction for years. Some members of my family feel that to not help out family members who are addicts and to not put up with their bullshit is an act of outright hatred towards them, and therefore throwing them by the waste side. By helping out, I mean providing them monetary support, continuing to let them reside in their home even after having their personal space violated numerous times, things like that.

First off, if their lives are being endangered in front of you and you wish to do something about it, that's fine. No way in hell I could stand by and watch a family member get beat up. That's understandable. But that other stuff I mentioned? That is not showing love. That is ENABLING the addict to continue living how they are. No matter how much they say they want to change, if they continue to stay in the element that is the source of their problems, continue to buy drugs from and borrow money from pushers with no way of paying it back....*sigh* Addiction is something that no person can defeat alone. That I can understand. But if there is anything I've learned over the years, is that love alone cannot cure addiction. It CAN'T. The addict HAS to get to their breaking point, or their BOTTOM. For some addicts, that happens quickly. For others, it takes years and years before hitting a bottom, if they're not dead.

I wonder if my fam would have limited my uncle's options sooner. Before more things were stolen from us, before he got beaten badly a couple months ago by people he owed money to, before those same pushers put glue into the locks of my apartment building and the top lock of my and my grandmother's apartment, which co-incided with his going to detox and not being around when this bullshit happened...I wonder if this all could have been averted a long time ago. But no matter. I hope he gets his shit together, but after being a victim and witness to his bullshit as an addict, I'm not waiting around for it.

There's something else that offends me as well. The subject of forgiveness. I understand why it is necessary. I feel that family forces it on you without allowing you to work through your pain, just for the sake of having everyone get along. This is something that I cannot abide by. I will not and cannot pretend that I am on good terms with someone when I'm not. I will not and cannot pretend that everything is cool btw myself and someone when I haven't forgiven them yet, and having it talked about around me gives me the idea that the idea is being crammed into my throat, and I don't take well to others' ideas being forced on me.

Family needs to deal with their shit, not brush it under a rug and think that love will make everything better and the bad times will just go away. Nothing ever "goes away", and to not resolve it weak and does nothing but breed resentment and contempt for fellow members. No matter how much you love someone, you cannot love their addiction away. In the end, the addict has to decide whether they want to get clean or spend the rest of their lives strung out. Now, if you want to really help the person, get them in a program. Do not enable the addict. Any type of support that doesn't help them to end their addiction does them no good. Sure, you prove your love, but you're telling the addict in the end that you will continue to accept them as they are, when what they are is not only affects them mentally, physically and emotionally, it affect YOU as well.